I am just the opposite. To me, it's all about the journey. I told her that even if I were to experience instant total healing I'd still want to go back and find out how I got from there to here. My friend just laughed at me, not believing that I would want to do that.
I tried to explain that I would want answers to such things as where God met me in my journey, and what choices I made either helped or hindered me along the path. And I wouldn't want it any other way. She could scarcely believe that I'd want to do that. To her, if you're healed, that's it. You don't need to do anything else.
My healing journey began a long time ago, and I can look back and see how far I've come. I can see how the choices that I make now are very different from the choices that I made early on in therapy. I am stronger and more resilient now. I have a voice now. I can see how God was faithful on this journey of mine that is many times so painful I can hardly get from one day to the next.
As I look ahead to even more healing, I know that no matter how painful, how overwhelming, or how devastating this journey is, I wouldn't trade it for instant healing. As convoluted as it may sound, where I am on this journey is exactly where I want to be.
3 comments:
This is a good post, and gave me lots to ponder.
I too would rather experience the journey as opposed to being instantly healed. For one thing, it's the journey itself that strengthens and changes us on so many levels.
Can this be done with instant restoration?
I occasionally go back and read my old blog posts, so I can see what progress I've made along my journey the wilderness of healing. It really helps to do this; when I don't, I get the feeling I'm standing still, not accomplishing one darn thing.
I wish you well on your journey, fellow traveler--I'm glad our paths crossed!
I don't think that people can be just healed without the journey. I know a few who claim to have accomplished that but they are transparent and insincere. They spend much time "proving" how healthy they are. Pretty sure that's a clear message it didn't work.
I know for me the journey is what has made me who I am today. I respect that person and I would not give that up for a single instant to have it all be changed to something easier.
Thank you both for your comments. Beautiful Dreamer, I'm glad our paths crossed too. I'm in the process of reading all of your blog posts.
Rising Rainbow, thank you too, for the validation. I always look forward to updates on your blogs.
Horses have always been a huge part of my life; I think if it weren't for mine as a kid I wouldn't be here today.
Thanks both of you.
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